Heart Decision

With pieces missing
My heart will decay
As I try my best
To love you everyday.
In color
I failed to see the truth.
But now that we're faded to black and white
I see the real you.
With pain for a love
And tears for a smile.
Lies as a promise
And me as a denial.
The words you will never say
Are words I hear too much.
I love you
But I've had enough.
I cant do this alone
Because that doesn't make sense.
I'm sleeping on stones
So I won't say what I'll regret.
It hurts that you
Don't seem to care.
I'm trying
But my reward is unclear.
I want a future with you,
But not if you don't want to be here.
So I'm turning down the charm
And turning up the truth.
I'm putting my brain on silent
And putting my heart to use.
I plead my peace
Now it's up to you.
This isn't my relationship
So help me decide what we should do.