trying to hold on to what was never there in the first place,
trying to be there for who never existed in the first place,
trying to make sense of what was never meant to be
trying so hard to be true to me
trying to keep what should be lost
trying to reap what was never sown
trying to read what was never written
trying to write what cannot be put into words
trying to see what does not exist
trying to put into words these thoughts with my fists
trying to know what cannot be known
trying to feel what i will never feel again
trying to make love overcome hate
trying to seal my infamous fate
trying to run but im still standing here
trying to breathe while under water
trying to save myself
