I'm Back & Worse Than Ever

I looked into the mirror today
And saw the girl I always hid
She stared in hatred, fear and loss
Of all the wrong she did

I began to think of the road I was walking
That has led me right back here
To meet someone face to face
That I so thoroughly fear

The alcohol ran through these poisoned veins
Until I no longer could see
I refused to face the fact
That this...thing...has always been me

Closing my eyes tight
I began to feel the world spinning
As my stomach spilled to the floor
I realized I never had a chance of winning

Slowly but surely all else around me
Was disillusioned from what it seemed
Inside my heart began to kill
That child's foolish dream

I asked the one I loved to hold me
But he turned and did refuse
Proving that illusion was a thing called happiness
Temporarily sustained by drugs and booze

No longer could I understand
Or attempt to be so fake
To hear their words rip my sanity once more
Was more pain than I could take

I saw her in the mirror today
God, I hope no one knows
As shame cuts through my soul
Again the blood flows

Too late they came to realize
It only took that little bit more
Her eyes were glazed as she laid in rest
Among the broken pieces on the floor

-She wrote this. She did it.