Do i Deserve this life?

I knelt upon this crumbling ground,
Looking up to the darkened skys above,
Hoping for some answers to some of my questions.

But at this time there is nothing to come of my hopes. My head hangs as painful memories fill my mind,
I close my eyes as chilled tears fall,
visions turn to nightmares.

I clench my fists in an undieing rage,
thats grown stronger each year that has gone by.
I open my eyes, the pain shoots threw my heart, making me grab at my chest,
gasping for air that seems not to be around at this time.

I looked up, clawing at this new found figure in front of me, beging to be saved, but the figure fades,
leaving me to fend for myself.

I fall to my four's, crawling threw the crumbling grounds,
living threw the memories like they just happend, pleading for the breath to save me,
but a man whispers a question,
Do You Deserve This Life? . . . .