You tell me I've, just been telling lies the whole time
But if that was true I was a fool to think you were mine
I guess I never loved you like I pretended to
Only let you fall away from me like you wanted to
You were the one who wanted to
I never wanted to let go, I couldn't bear to lose you
It's too late to regret
You've been erased and out of my head
Kind of funny how you always said you didn't wanna see me cry
Always said you couldn't bear the thought of me disappearing altogether, all forever
And then you threw me away just to forget
To forget that I treated you so wretchedly, threw you to the back of my mind
What a lie you wove for yourself, what a bunch of lies!
I never told a single fib, I only gave you honesty
Guess you couldn't handle all of me
Maybe you don't deserve all of me, or even a part of me
Parallel to the floor now, it sits cold to the touch of my fingertips that are lost and on their own
Without a hand to hold because you took it all away from me
I tried so hard not to get attached but you took my heart from my chest
Ripped out every single artery and then shoved it back at me, bleeding profusely
Stupid me to think that you might've actually cared
Stupid me to think you could possibley hold a place in your own heart for something human and alive
Something alive even as she struggles to hold on, gasping for air that isn't there
How could you leave ever remnant of us on the ground and walk away?
Without a real goodbye, with only a firm break
A break on the tight grasp we held onto together
You were the one who always reminded me we had a chance to forever
And though every night you woke me up in my dreams, and every day you spent sharing with me
I meant nothing, I was just another girl to pass the time
To pass your hours a little less lonely, I was only there to help you get by
I tried not to get too attached but now I'm the only one still afraid to let go
I always knew we'd end as blunt as we did but not that I would be the last to know
That the end was so close because I just couldn't see it
Or maybe didn't wanna accept that fact that in reality
We had faded to black just as soon as fate had stuck us together
If only I could cut the cord around my heart that holds on to the teethers
Of you and I when we were both so happy and alive
For the first and only time
