I CHEATED ON HIM!!!

Why did i do this painful sin,
i cheated more then once on him,
i dont know what i was thinking,
the guy made me feel used,
he only wanted me for sex,
my LOVE he abused,
Whats sad is my boy friend still
doesn't know, but i dont
cheat on him no more tho,
i cutt myself to heal the pain,
if i didt do that id go insane,
i cry almost everyday,
wanting to die and run away!!!

p.s this poem is true, i have a boy freind that i have been going out with for almost a year and i cheated on him with three diffrent guys... i feel terrible and wish i could take it back!!! its made me so miserable to liove with this sin everyday... i want to apoligize but i love him so much i deiont want him to leave me... i wish i could take back everything!!! im sorry!!!