Day in and day out
I'm pretending to be this person I'm not
Heartache and pain i hide
Happiness and smiles i sell
But to who expense is this i lie i tell
My life anit fair but, i try to enjoy the ride
My life so worped and twisted i cant look in the mirror and say who i am
All I know is these tear anit suppose to flow so freely
I'm not suppose to wonder who i am
I'm suppose to ask why did you wake me
Why do i have so many problems
Why cant Jessica accept me
Is it because my mom messed up
If so she said she sorry
Is it because i didn't pray every night if so i tried
This endless cycle my life in
Why cant the circle be unbroken
Why my dad didnt love
Why he want to be with me
Why mom anit called
Is it because the clothes i wore
Did i say I hate you One to many times
And they thought it was true
If,so i love them both please let them say it to
Why my little sister suffer because i told
My mom didn't care (or was to young to)
Or cause daddy was on a money making mission to busy chasing women
To see the boys that were really men she was going to just cause they were saying i love you
Who can Blame her me and momma did too
If my mom is a drug fein and my dad is a money fein
What am i destined to be
They both told me dont be like me
Now with all this in mind would i be wrong if i asked you
to end it all today
Now dont get it wrong i dont want to go that way
I'm just tried of the heartache,pain,setbacks, and lets downs
So i give it all to you today
A new me and a new beginning
This my prayer I say to you today
Amen
