How long can i go
without seeing your face
without hearing your voice
knowing that every step i take
is a step away from you?
how far can i run
before the string that held us
together for so long
is torn and frayed
and can not be fixed
or even knotted close?
my fingers shake above the keys
how do i know how to type
and chronicle our lives?
how have i made it this far
without you holding me up?
how have i learned that
i have to catch myself
because you're no longer there?
writing for no reason
because you no longer read
and i know not how to change
i know not how to forget
how long can i keep up this charade
that says that i will never love
never love you, or him
or him or him or him or him
never love again,
because you don't love me anymore
and i can't go on without that
not for long
not long at all
