Honestly..
I am hurting.
Nothing has been the same sense that night when we talked.
There is a void in my heart.
I long to fill it.
So many try.
And they do a great job.
But you.
You hurt me so deep.
A cut that no one can tend too.
They try.
And for that I love them more than most.
Never again could I trust you.
Yet still my heart is breaking for you.
For your life.
For what I know hurts you.
For what you can not let go of.
And for that I cry.
Tears of shear pain for you.
I have cried almost everyday sense that day for you.
Not for you to be with me.
But for you to see what you have done.
The wake you have caused.
The lives you have scarred.
But yet..
I forgive you.
And I love you.
All I want is for you to be happy.
For you to learn from all this.
And one day when I know that..
I will smile!
Knowing that you are a better person because of me..
Even if pain was involved.
Good came from this mess.
This is not drama.
This is life.
This is your pain.
Your unforgiveness.
Your guilt.
I hurt for you love.
Honestly..
I'm broken.
