Should I Stay or Should I Go

Can you see what I see what I can see? No I don't think you can. You don't see the pain in my world or the suffering that I face. Do you understand why I feel this way? No I don't think you do. You don't realize why the world seems so unpleasant to me, why the scariest thing in my life, is my life. I'm searching for a reason, a reason to continue on living and I'm having a hard time looking. Because everywhere I look all I'm seeing is more and more reasons to end my life for good.
When you look at me, I bet all that you can see is a girl like any other. a girl who seems normal on the outside but really deep down shes(I'm)dieing on the inside with no reason for living, no reason to continue. I feel as though I have been tortured inside and out. I'm losing my patience and losing hope that things might change at every wall I hit.
The road of living just seems to long. My problems they never go away and and if they do, its never for long. My hearts been broken one too many times. I cant seem to shake this feeling of despair. I cant hide the way I feel anymore from the people who know me so well. They can see that I'm not myself but they just don't know why. I hate this life I'm living, I hate the problems I have to face.
I'm closer to making my decision now, SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO?