Of all people in this world I’m wishing for you,
I know you really don’t want me to,
But every time I go to sleep,
I get on my knees and pray not to weep,
Every time I see you I get tongue tied,
It still hurts me because I remember that you lied,
I swear to this day that I won’t love you anymore,
That it doesn’t kill me when you walk out the door,
You slammed my heart into the ground,
It shattered without making a sound,
I don’t want to love you,
I hate everything about all the things you do,
I want to crawl in my bed,
Forget about my feelings and listen to my heart, not my head,
I promise myself that you are not important tonight,
It doesn’t matter why it’s wrong, it’s just not right,
I pray so badly to take this pain away,
I want to live to see another day,
There are teardrops on my bedspread,
There’s a memory running through my head,
Delete the memories one by one,
Oh God I tell myself that this will be fun,
I cross a memory of you holding my hand,
Looking in my eyes and trying to understand,
Suddenly I remember why I love you so much,
It’s the way you look at me and your gentle touch,
I blink the tears from my eyes,
This is not a compromise,
This isn’t fair to me or him,
I sit on the floor as the sun outside starts to dim,
I stare into the moonlight,
Emotions floating around feeling just right,
And I cry because I do this everyday,
I don’t want to listen to a word I say,
That no matter how many times I say I love you,
That you will never feel the same way about me,
So I look up into the sky so blue,
I wish I didn’t wish for you.
