What will i do?

Will I live or die?
what will I do.
will I commit suicide?
I have no clue.
you tell me not to
but why?

Living in pain
or,
dieing in vain.
what to choose....

I can no longer stand this pain
but suicide is insane.
so what will i choose?
you say that you want the best for me,
so why don't you choose for me.