Okay?

Okay is not what I am so don't say that I'm okay, day in day out its like a game I used to play. Sometimes I think "Crazy" is how I should stay, but then something new happens, HE gives me a new day. I promised her I wouldn't say this but death is too easy to say, now please excuse me and understand if you may. I'm like an outcast in the group, never being heard or having my say, each day I have to pay and listen to constant debate. WHY? When I feel alone and looked at with hate, why the heck should I be around if i cause so much pain and angst. If you have a problem say something and stop walking away, you'd rather leave then stay? Fine i don't have to take this I'll leave first, you won't have to be in my life........because I'll end this curse................