I want to scream
&& rip this flesh from my stomach.
I've gained too much
&& I can't take this anymore.
I don't dare look in the mirror-
for fear of that ugly creature I will see.
No one understands it-
they can't imagine why I would feel the way I feel.
Depressed with my body-
I'm going in between healthy and death.
I never wanted to look like this, this was always my biggest fear.
Once again I have to choose between life and death.
I can't stand to look and feel this way
but yet I can't afford to go back to the way I was.
I just want to take myself out of this game...
I have one friend who haunts me
&& ANNA is her name.
