That girl

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[[THAT GiRL]]
her pain is tattoed on her skin
taking every hit
life throws at her
shes living a lie
trying to be one
person by day
n another by night
she doesnt know how to deal
shes thought about suicide
but she can never get the courage to do it
she cries herself to sleep every night
trying to figure out how to live her life
shes tried one way
n the other but none work
she gets weaker n weaker
with every day that goes by
as she sits in the dark
her tears running down her face
she wonders why she must live in such
terrible conditions
shes tried leaving home
but they always bring her back
shes tried to break down the walls keeping her in
shes wishes for a better life
with people who actually care about her
not her actions JUST her
shes sick of people criticizing n judging
shes confused n wants answers
but doesnt know who or wat to ask
shes waited for those moments where she
can be her own
but found out that she doesnt know who she is
not a gangbanger
n definitely not a rape victim
she doesnt wanna be judged by her past
n much less her present
her mother says "im here for u mija"
but not even she can understand her
or maybe doesnt wanna try to
shes knows she has to get the strength
to find sum one who can help her through this
but all the things she should of said but didnt
are killing her now
the life that used to shine so bright
inside her
is gone.gone wit the rest of
her happieness n joy
she wonders wat happened
she used to be a normal lil girl
who got along wit others n did as she was told
sum days she lays in bed all day
others she wont come home

...that lil girl used to be me
now only god knows who i am.
8:12 PM 7/25/2008
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