Going crazy

I stand alone in a forgotten land
With your last words of I love you still buried in my head ,the night becomes day in this forsaken land u have banished me I wright yout name on these rocks I draw your image everywhere, like a mad man I stare aimeless at the sea with your last words of I love you still in my head I lay on these forsaken land attached to our memories together my heart hardened from so much crying and yet despite of all I still love you . The night comes again my sole companion a simple star a simple joy with your last words of I love you in my head I wake up another day to the same cruel reality insanity my best friend makes ur image come reality talking to the winds hoping you hear my words with your last words of I love still in my head I die on these forsaken land forgotten by my love I lay on these rocks with your name written across my chest saying to your last words I love you..
I realized now that it wasn't your fault I failed to realize my errors.I failed to see that u did loved me I betrayed you in the worst way possible and in my madness I blamed you like a coward .mixed emotions consumes my body wondering if it will ever be diffrent .I lay on these forsaken land that I banished myself to, with your last words of I love you still in my head I lost you because of my actions I cry like if it would help heal all my destruction every emotion confused of my new thinking I blamed you not seeing that I was at fault all this time,on the distance I see death coming slowly towards me laughing knowing that all my cries were in vane....
Conflicting thoughts mixed emotions I try to stay sane begging for mercy like a coward, I lay with your name across my chest holding on to your memory saying that I love you .....

As I walk along side with death to my eternal hell thinking that you really did love me and I ignored all I betrayed you , banished by my own actions here on this forsaken land were there is no mercy on my soul one last tear falls one last I love you as I go with death to my eternal damnation I had it all and I lost everything ......hope you can forgive me my love...
. Don dyablo