My heart is breaking...
as i begin to cry...
so unbearable its like being torn apart.
Thoughts become my enemy
as i begin to go numb..
stepping into the darkness
looking for a shred of hope... yet finding none
turn to the blade...not deep enough to kill...
don't wish to die... just wish to end the psychological torment
friends need me so they can live...
allow all the pain to be thrown onto me...
I'm a calm person... can handle the world.
Falling apart comes with the territory
remaining calm is always a good cover
knowing i keep them alive... stops me from anything irrational
keeping calm saves many of them when they give up...
none knows how much its hurting
none know whats in my head...
to tell them would make it worse...
would burden the world
best to suffer in silence...
give them a chance to be happy.
so in the darkness i sit.... allowing my heart to shatter
crying through to my soul..
keeping it together for the sake of the world and for those who hold a piece of my heart.
