I still remember how you looked at me.
looked at me like i was something special.
turns out i wasn't.
decided to lead me on did you?
well i cant say that I'm mad that you did.
i was just another girl.
another girl you weren't interested in.
so i was in love.
like a million other hopeless girls.
i was young.
but old enough to understand when enough was enough.
all i wanted was to make you happy.
like you made me when you smiled at me.
i wanted to hold you
when you cried.
turns out you didn't need me.
and i wasn't the only one
that wanted you.
and even though i would have been there if you cried.
you were never there the endless times i cried.
and silently i wondered if you would even care.
care if i ran away; or died.
but i knew we were a lie.
you were too cool for someone like me.
the whole time you thought i was stupid;
a little fat gay girl.
i was just another one you used.
I tried to be funny.
to be popular.
I hung out with people you liked.
i tried to be pretty.
i tried to lose weight.
for you.
you laughed at my jokes.
turned out you were laughing at me.
you teased me and i thought that was flirting.
turned out you were just being mean.
you wanted to hang out with me.
turns out you just wanted to hang out with the people i was with.
but after all i found out.
i wasn't mad.
i just cried.
cried for the times i thought it would work out.
your friends made fun of you.
cause you had an "admirer"
they pretended to be you.
way back then.
they told me that you loved me.
how stupid i was.
i believed them.
i thought that this pathetic dream i had would come true.
i threw two penny's in the fountain and wished for me and you.
and the other to thank god;
for this miracle.
i should have thrown in more than 2 cents.
i should have enjoyed myself that day.
i thought i didn't deserve being any happier though.
i should have gave up that day
when i came home and realized this was a cruel joke and you hated me.
but i didn't.
i kept on loving you.
i kept on pretending to be someone else.
for you.
something stupid to do for a guy.
a jerk like you.
but you lead me on.
forcing me to believe that my plan was working.
i thought it was maybe a miracle.
but actually it was just a joke...
