It's almost a year since we first started going out
A whole year that I mostly lived for you and only you
I ignored my school, failed my courses
Lied to my parents, neglected my friends
All I thought was you
All I breathed was you
All I had was you
All I wanted was you
You were the perfect boyfriend, the only one that had ever gotten so close to me
We broke up and I experienced the worst pain I had ever felt in my whole life
A pain that lasted for three whole months
A pain that took up every second of every minute of every day of my life
A pain that tore me up inside and broke my heart into little pieces I thought would never come togethr again
A pain I thought would never go away.
After we got back together I was so happy
All the pain had disappeared because I was with you again
I was in your arms again, jsut as I ardently wished I would be
You were kissing me again, hugging me, touching me, holding me as we slept through the nites.
But then a new kind of pain took over
The pain of knowing you are not the right guy for me
The pain of knowing we won't be together forever
The pain of having to break up with you and not being able to do it
the pain of crying every day and realizing you don't care anymoer
And finally the pain of breaking up with you and losing you once again.
I am over you know. I can finally say this with a hundred percent confidence
I sometimes think of you, and a sadness comes through me.
But it's a safe sadness; it's not pain, and it's not yearning for you
It is just the memories of us coming back and bringing tears to my eyes.
You are the only guy that has ever broken my heart so bad
The only one that has ever hurt me this way
The only one I have fallen for this hard
And after all's been said and done,
I am glad you are out of my life
And I can promise you
That you will never ever see me again.
