Why not me?!

Eternal bleeding within my eyes.
everything becomes nothing. Nothing but disguise of what once was.

I don't understand why the wrong people go.
The ones you loved most.

It seems not everything happens for a reason because I don't see what you leaving is helping.

Flashbacks of popping pictures flashing in the sky.
I slowly tear up wishing it was me to die.

So unexpected, so tragic.
the thought of your face in that coffin.
Emergency exit to this world is what I really need.
The blood running from my heart is unbarring and no one can see.

the tears running from me.
I wish I was gone instead of you.

No one deserves to see you go,leaving us all confused.

This seems to unreal for it not to be a dream. I don't seem to be awake for this to be happening to me.

I cry so many nights cause this is so not fair.
this hole left inside me is just waiting air. Ripping inside me with nothing now left to tear.