I'm Falling And Losing Stregnth

Everything i say, you will try and contradict,
Its amazing how much pain, youve managed to inflict,
When you saw me cry, you just smiled and whispered 'youll be alright'
But im falling and losing stregnth, for this very painfull fight.

This poem i write, im havving trouble to explain,
of all the shame and sorrow, hate and excruciating pain.
The memories are locked inside my head, trying to find a way out,
but im finding it hard to let them go, with having a single doubt

The pain i suffer that so desperately needs to be known,
will always be a burden to my heart, as it is so scared of being shown,
Im truly needing shoulder to cry on, someone to hear me talk,
and not someone who will hear my past, ask me 'who?' and simply walk.

These words that im truly wishing to convey,
will painfully fall as tears from my heart oneday,
But i hope by then,, i will know who i am
and NEVER have to wear a fake smile ever again..