Until when will you hold on to something that you even don't know if it still exists?
It's really hard to feel this way, especially when you believe what you thought is there, and ask yourself, is it really still there?
I have come to this point where I don't know anymore, when I don't understand what's going on.
Is it only me, alone, that is pursuing on this journey because I can't feel you now next to me.
You know that it hurts me a lot whenever you become silent because I don't know if this is really your way of making me to miss you or it's because you really don't think about me nor even care at all.
It's so hard being like this, I am the only one who always understands you; I am the only one who is being hurt.
When I've decided to fall in love with you, I prepared myself for the consequences, for the possibilities that might happen.
I followed my heart even though I know, in the end; I will be the one who will be hurt.
But despite all of these, I still fall; I don't know why of all the people who likes me or even loves me, it is you that I chose even though I already knew that you don't really love me.
You know why I've asked you so many things about your ex-relationships. It's because I want to know what would say whenever you'll think of me and whenever someone will ask you about me. I hope you can think of me as one of your happiest memoirs and not the way that you have had described them to me.
I don't mean farewell because I know my heart says "NO". I don't want you to go unless you'll tell me so.
As I've said: You are my Smile, yes, you will always be and I also want to be your smile too. But if you're not happy being with me anymore, I won't force you to stay with me. I will let you find the happiness you're searching for, maybe with somebody else. Even though, it will break my heart.
My only question for you: Will you come and reach me there? Or you've already decided to stop somewhere?
