The Theft of Me

Having loved with every bit of my soul
Then tossed to the curb
Mentally I changed. Evolved.
Months of crying, reading, starving and cutting. Then I stood up. For me.
Pushed myself more than ever before. More college. More knowledge
Decided to crawl out of my own self loathing hole and speak to others
I never gave any indication that I wanted to be intimate with another
Maybe. Just maybe that was my mistake
Friends. Thats just what I thought we were
Nothing more. Nothing less
As I slept, it was my body you decided to violate
That morning I woke in wet panties. I stared in the bathroom mirror for what seemed like hours
My female parts ached. My stomach was sick. What you left inside of me made me vomit
You were inside of me. Unprotected. The hottest water ran down my body
Still I feel unclean. Weeks have passed now. I rarely shower or look in the mirror
If I stay unclean and uncaring of my looks, will this all go away?
Look through my eyes. Stare in the mirror. Now you will see what I see.
A weak, weary, sad lady. I am tainted now. I thought that I would find a love like I had before
Yes, he did scramble my mind. Broke my heart. And left. But I still had hope that another was waiting somewhere out there. The two of us would complete each other. Forever
BUT YOU
You stole something that cannot be found or returned
You stole ME.
Wishing you away doesn't work. You are just a spineless boy
As as awful as it was, I fear others now. Are there more thieves like you?

Any comments are wanted. Its very difficult to express rape. I don't feel pretty. I'm lonely and lost. :(