I'm alone playing with the words in my mind
Rearranging them and twisting them
Still trying to find a way home
Still lighting a white candle trying to find a safer place
Trying to light my way back to security
You stood there
With your fingers in my throat
Trying to urge the words out
The things I wouldn't say
But you're only putting words in my mouth
Feeding me bittersweet blackberry wine
I hate the stain of your faith stuck on my fingertips
For I fear it will wash off too soon
And I never want to forget the days you said
You were proud of me
But I'm always afraid I'll disappoint you once again
So I sit mouth shut, closed up, beside you
And hope you can't read my thoughts
Because I never want to let you know
How beautiful what I saw in you actually was
And how I never thought I could match
Half the love you deserve
This mood ring is stuck on gray
But you rest your head on your hands
And smile up at me
I wish you'd tell me what you saw in me in the first place
Maybe that way I'd know why you stood by me
And why what I really deserved from you was
Half the love you gave
