Memory

I say your name in silence
I think of all the things you've done
and how most was done with violence
This is not how i wanted it to be
I just thought you'd like to know
That everything that happened
wasn't just for show
I did it cause i love you
and even though you used me
you have to know that i still cared and that
I tried to show you what i mean.
Now i think of how you hurt me
and all the wrong you've done
and how my heart burns like the sun.
It burns cause you were never there,
you said you would and i believed
and maybe, just maybe i thought you'd care and
think of all the people you've deceived
for those who i thought i loved
you ruined it not just for me
but for those you seemed to shove.
I hate you cause of who you tried to be!