Cant believe

I cant believe u did this to me,
I cant believe i still feel this way,
I cant believe i still hang on every word u say,
I cant believe u still make my hands shake and my heart break,...............
I cant believe when i saw u again..
I wanted to world to open up and swallow me whole and never have existed ....
Not there..
Not in that moment
Not with u.......

But what could i do??
I could never turn away from you..
So WtF am I supposed to do...
I do NOT get to choose
And even IF I could it would not be you....

To many tears shed..
To many things unspoken......
To many times u left me broken...