Everyday I wake up and I'm instantly stressed
This house is like the drama house
No happiness in any corner
No smiles, no laughs, no how are you, how was your day.
No normal questions that normal family's ask
Instead its,
"you stress me, I'm leaving"
"I hate you"
"Your a fkin mess up"
"You cause the drama and don't do anything about it"
"I don't need to deal with your sht anymore so just leave"
I sit here thinking:
"What happened the the happy family I once had"
"Where did my best friend for life go"
"Where did I mess up God?"
I'm not the same girl I use to be, and it kills me inside to know that.
I don't even know where to start to go back to that girl.
Instead I fake this smile, it's easier to smile and make
people think you are happy, rather then to frown & try
to explain why you're so sad. That's the motto I've
lived by for the past 2 yrs.
And I don't know how to change it.
I miss my old life.
I'm tired of the sadness, this person isn't me.
I btch to my bf all the time and luckily he hasn't started to hate me just yet, but one day he will.
I tell him that, he laughs but I know it's true.
Always is, sooner or later everyone hates me
It's just how my life is.
My Everyday life.
~*~I wrote this poem because I needed to express my feelings some how, and I know it might not make alot of sense, but it helped some. rate & comment please~*~ will return favor ^_^
