Still on My Mind

Your pointless smile
Your greased back hair
The same smile you carry
Everywhere.

I wonder if you know it's true
That I really feel
Emotions that I've never felt
Wondring' is this real?

Sometimes we laugh,
But then we cry
How it is you look at me,
Makes me wonder why?

Why do I hate you whelst I love?
Why can I not be free?
Why is it that I will not
Allow myself to see

What is there inside my heart,
That I do not know.
All I know is from the start,
I knew not where to go.

Meeting you was like a wave,
We danced, we talked, we spun.
Now I think back and remember when,
It all just seemed so fun.

You look at her like you looked at me
But then I can not tell,
When she looks does she see
That clearly I'm not well?

I loved you once, the way she does
I just did not know how
To look at you with adoring eyes
And murmur just a "wow."

You are truly so amazing,
You deserve much more than me.
You deserve someone as smart and pretty,
Well, someone just like she.

So live your life, forget I'm here,
Then I can live in peace.
Rather than what I've discovered is fear,
In thinking you may still want me too.