Lost Love (i kno i kno very orginal lol)

I thought you loved me
i thought you cared
i thought there was something special
that we shared.

but i was wrong
and now i see
that you were just
too good for me

your touch so tender
your kiss so sweet
how can i deny
each time we meet

how much i love you
how much i care
how jealous i am
of what you and she share.

i wish i was her
i wish it were me
but all i truly want
is for you to be happy.

i wish i could show you.
i wish you could see
to help you understand
whats inside of me.

but you'll never know
never truly see
how much it hurt
when you abandoned me.

cause I'll never tell you
you'll never know
cause deep down inside
i don't have the courage to show

to walk up to you
and truly say
"i love you, i need you
i want you to stay"

but i keep on going
with this smile i wear
so you wont see
that i still care

smiling on the outside
crying on the in
feeling like i was the one
who committed a sin

but you were the one
who cut me so deep
and stood there
just watching my blood seep

standing, just standing there
till my body was dry
standing there hoping
you'd watch me die

well, now I'm truly
just dead inside
not one more
left in me not cried

I'm a walking corpse
my heart has been shattered
but you don't care
how badly you battered.

you just keep living
like nothing occurred
while i lie here
my death insured.

~TJ