To those I love

Far away, far from me
Fly like a bird and cross that sea
Hand reaches out but finds only air
Two lost souls with one wall isn't fair

Anger from within reaches out
Vains burst open and thoughts cry out loud
Addicted to pain, it calms me down
Creating heartache and feeds the clown

Couldn't care less, to whom I bother
Hate rises towards another
Past unlocks and explodes to the surface
Tell me, what the hell is the purpose??