Do you know? not really a poem.

Do you know what its like to feel alone. Really alone.
Do you know what it feels like to be betrayed and have your heart shred to pieces.
Do you know how it feels to cry yourself to sleep out of fear and exhaustion.
Do you know how it feels being convinced that your the bad person, when in fact you have been the most vulnerable.
Do you know how it feels to be forced to tell your most loved and cherished person, something that you know will tear them apart and cause absolute devastation.
Do you know how it feels to be made to believe that you were the one who did wrong and feel dirty, when in fact you were the victim.
Do you know what it feels like to have years and years of barriers built on hard-work, determination, sweat, tears, memories, blood, bruises and scars, get blown away as if a it were a feather.
Do you know how it feels to come face-to-face with your past that has been constantly haunting you, and confront your fears.
Do you know how it feels to see an image of yourself as a young child and tell your own reflection that you did no wrong and not to be afraid.
Do you know how it feels to pray to God and beg for his angels to come down, protect you and give mercy but at the same time knowing that you are more alone than ever.
Do you know what its like to cry, without making a sound, so that no-one hears you, tasting the fabric and your own tears
Do you know what its like when you just cannot breathe and there are invisible hands around your neck getting tighter and tighter.
Do you know how it feels to want to die, just sleep forever and never wake up because the world seems so unjust, cold and cruel
Do you know what it is like to believe that you were the most loved person in the world, feel heartbroken and realize that in fact, it was only you loving the other.
Do you know what its like to not be able to hold your head up high, because its not your head but your heart that feels heavy
Do you know what its like to go to hell and back and realize that the world is hell.
Do you know what it is like to have your faith crushed, and ground into the earth.
Do you know what its like waking up every morning and feeling depressed, disappointed but most of all empty.
Do you know how it feels when it rains outside and you feel like the heavens are opening up and crying for you
Do you know how it feels to keep being told sorry when you know its just words and nothing will change.
Do you know how it feels to keep hearing I love you but in fact wondering why your hatred and rage does not reflect what you say.
Do you know what it feels like to write a letter for someone, like this letter, and know the one its intended for will never read it. Will never know.