Death and me? is this the beginning to my book? (chapter 1)
Who am I and am I the one to control my own destiny? I am not a very religious person and this is not meant to be a religious work, I am only looking to misconstrue your views on life, and possibly in doing so give you and myself a better picture of what life really is and why things happen as they do. Is it our decisions that reflect what happens with our life, or is it just the way life works... that everything is put in front of us, pre exposed before our eyes and we just have to take advantages when the windows open up. Do we create controversy just so we can feel compassion, or say "yes that once happened to me and it change my life?" We all hold the answers to our life, they are locked, trapped within the abyss, all we have to do is fish them out. When the founder of a great company first produced his product, could he have possibly comprehended what he was going to expose himself to? That his product would make him rich beyond belief, and solve his every problem when it came to ever working again? Who holds the answers to the questions we do not know, or better yet, who is the one to answer the questions that we cannot nor will we ever understand? As a writer and a philosopher I can only insinuate my opinions to try and give you information bias to the situation in order to help you comprehend the ordeal that you may face. From the time of our birth til the day of our death we are exposed to situations that can either make or break our life, and some that may never have any effect, but is there a third side to this? Yes there is and that is that we can for see our own future. From personal experience I have always felt that I can take a situation I may be in, and predict the outcome. If asked the question where do you see yourself in 10 years the only answer I can give is dead. I do not see my future, something I could always see in my head years ago. If asked what if I have you close the baseball game pitching, I�???�??�?�¢??d think to myself, I feel a little off today coach I think we'll lose, and going against my jujudgmentmy gut shot feeling, he puts me in and we lose. Is it the lack of confidence, ability, or had it already been predetermined and my hindsight bias abolished any thought of winning. I have pondered my theories, and taken a look at life and its complexity and realized that involute situations are the easiest to figure out. When in a game of Texas hold em and you have a gut shot at a flush, all the river cards are up but one and the last card you need is a spade, and you are feeling lucky and go all in, with the outcome that the last card is in fact a diamond. You are not surprised, but is this just the pessimistic view, or was it meant to be and no matter what, even if you folded, that the next turn you would still have been beaten? This is the time when you say I have lost, and accept the fact that you have been beaten. As soon as you have you feel better, yet you are perplexed to the fact of just having lost pride and money, yet somehow it is not a bother. Before I close out I ask you to ponder this, ponder if I cannot see the future is it because I don't know what I want, or maybe I shall be dead, then accept the fact that it could be death, and once you realize that, take a second look at your life right now; let the ones you love, know that you love them, laugh more often, cry more often, taste the air, breath in the sweetness, and never be upset, just take the disadvantage you've been handed, and with it the acceptance of the downfall, then re look at the positives and you will find yourself in a better place. For when the negatives in your life have clouded your mind, your heart, your life let the good shine through, trust me you will feel better.
