Me an alcohoic? Love drunk or just an idiot? (CHAPTER 7)
Sometimes life hits you hard, and you never know what is going to happen. I for one am always embracing the bad because if something is so terrible then that must mean that at one point something was really great. So it must be good to feel bad. Life is full of amazing little surprises and amazingly terrible surprises, Always expect the worse to happen and never say hey whatever it could always be worse, because it is not fair to take for granted something good. As for the old expression keep your friends near and keep you enemies closer... forget about it, life is to short to have enemy's, and if you do have an enemy ask yourself why? You will probably be surprised to see it is because of something meaningless like an ex boyfriend/girlfriend dating them, they called you a name, competition, or even because of a bull shit confrontation. Life is short people live well, laugh always, and love all. If something bad happens to you then just look at it and laugh, Unless it is life threatening or tragic then why not. Everything bad always makes a good story to tell.Embrace the rain and enjoy every last drop. Some people have very unique ways of dealing with pain. Some laugh it off, some talk to people and some turn to drinking. Yes as immature as it sounds they do. I am not going to lie I myself have even done this. When something such as for instance, a girlfriend which you love or even an ex girlfriend breaks your heart, what do you do. I dove into the bottle but no not by myself because why? you all know if you drink alone your an alcoholic. But then i thought about this... I am drinking because of the pain. The pain hurts so much you know, it makes you feel sick to your stomach and tightens up your chest and you feel alone. I felt deserted, desolate, very much alone, So think about it if you drink alone your an alcoholic, but at the same time if you drink because your lonely doesn't that too in the same instance make you an alcoholic. True even if your buddies are down and need to get some stress of and once i even had a buddy who had a broken heart at the same time as me so rather then drink alone we shared some lonely drinks. It always sucks but never dive into the bottle, drinking is a recreational sport, and its all about choice, but if i learned one thing about drinking when I'm in pin is that rather then dull the pain it exploits it. I felt singled out and the pain amplified and would not leave me be. I called all of my friends and knocked on all of their dorm room doors an emotional wreck. I wasn't in control and couldn't keep it all in. I was the first to fall the last to know when drinking, so when thinking about drinking the pain away remember, the emptier the beer gets the fuller your glass gets. Love isa fast song when we all wished it was slow.....
