i met this girl her name was Nikki. i didn't know she'd b the love of my life. i don't no how i made it all this way without her. but now i cant make it without. we have a different relationship then most people. be we have the greatest kind of love that 2 people can have. i build a fortress around my heart so no one cud hurt me. but she ran threw it like it wasn't even there. i poured my heart out to her. she always helps me whether is a big problem or a small. now shes my girl and it the greatest feeling in the world. but its all on borrowed time. i hear her talk bout all these other guys but it makes me cry every time. last night was the most. she said she'd always be there but last nite she left me when i needed her the most. i was about to tell her what was wrong wen the son of a b.itch showed up. i begged her to stay with me she told me to hold on. then she hung up the phone, i was the worst feel feeling i ever had. y can i blow off my baby's momma everynite to talk to the love of my life but she cant blow off her friends for her own boyfriend. i called back many time but she wouldn't answer it make me sadder every time she wouldn't pick up the phone, but at the same time an evilness and a hatred came back to me. it reminded me of everything ne thing the caused me pain. i picked up that knife, like ive done so many time in the past b4. put it above my heart and pushed down the knife broke my skin. the knife wen in a lil bit, i pulled it out saw the blood but felt no pain in fact i felt relief. i wanted to try to go further in with the knife. but she stopped me i heard her voice n my head "i love u papi, i care bout u, i don't want u to hurt ne more" i put the knife down and cried, i cry myself to sleep, like i do everynite even tho she thinks I'm sleeping when she hangs up the phone. but i woke up 2day think bout u. i wasn't mad at u. i just want u to no i love u, 4ever and ever. muah
My "bf" wrote me this on yearbook and it made Me cry so hard but its so beautiful i love it. i had to post it hope u like it:)
