To My Angel

I'm scared
Scared of hurting
And risking
but most of all
I'm scared of losing you
How can i expect you to wait
for maturity and control
That may never come?
I'm not ready for this
For any of this
For this confusion
This unrest within my heart
I vowed not to love again
Until the years had passed
But now i find myself
Falling
Faster and faster
For something that cannot be
Why are you so sweet??
And why must your smile light up my dark dark world??
Why must the thought of you bring a smile to my lips??
And why must your name sound like music to my ears??
Why must your eyes fill my every dream??
And why must your arms feel so safe and comforting around me??
Why?
Why?
Why?
Must you be so wonderful??
When we cannot be
At least for now
We cannot
Will not
Cannot
be....