I'm going into this with dreams too big to accomplish.
Knowing exactly how its going to end
knowing its going to end in pain.
misery--
Yet, I take the plunge,
diving head first into the pool of you,
Only to find--your not there.
missing--
off with someone one else.
Angry tears always come next
why, why do i always let myself be led to you
thinking of a different out come--
thinking..maybe this time will be different.
maybe---
well maybe doesn't mean yes in this case.
yes, yes never comes.
not to me...
but to those other girls...
sure why not.
because I'm just a screwed up girl
who you have to deal with.
And I'm sorry.
I look at the small shiny sliver of metal laying across from me,
close my eyes and grab it
just like those many times before...
hold it close to the surface,
press down...
but never drag--
its not worth it,
not worth losing you over.
so once again...
I go into this--
Dreaming of a new outcome..
only--
i know how it ends.
