My imagination wanders,
And my eyes show an empty stare,
Visions flash and I remember -
My horrible past, my nightmare.
My skin breaks out in goose bumps,
And my hair stands up on end,
My knees go weak and start to shake,
And I silently beg for this to end.
I try to fight my memories,
I try to keep them tame,
But in an instant they taunt me,
And I'm tortured again and again.
No one hears my cries,
They cant hear me begging for release,
No one looks deep into my eyes,
They cant see my soul seep.
If only they could see or hear,
If they could take my pain away,
I might get a shot at life -
To live a normal, happy day.
My insides twist and turn,
My heart begins to pound,
Another flashback is coming,
I panic as I'm curled up on the ground.
All I can do is lay here,
As I feel my body explode,
I see myself back there, crying,
Begging to be left alone.
I slowly open my eyes,
And I quickly look around,
I feel embarrassed and ashamed -
Once again Ive let myself down.
I'm not brave enough to fight this,
Yet not strong enough to ask for help,
My insides ache as I quietly lay,
Wishing my memories would melt.
Please don't walk around me,
Please, I beg that you don't pass me by,
Please just stop and listen to my pleas,
Please, stop, and look deep into my eyes.
