So alone (rap)

Continuously crying, never seeming to cease,
Wishing the inner pain would just decease.
Dishing out all the fury possible, just trying.
Rid of this agony, must quit with all the lying.
Hid for so long, wanting to come and reveal,
DJ's true, befriend his side of appeal.
Stayin till the end, to see what's real.
Layin in bed, it's me tryin to call the deal.
Rival enemies trying to get me to retreat,
Get my remedy to suffer a defeat.
It wont work. Me? Dont like speakin dirt.
Thats like catchin me wearin a bleakin shirt!
Never found out what has made me this way.
Ever since my last GF, nothing is what I could say.
Searching for another, one to love me,
I search, but they all seem above what I see.
Why must I be this way? Is it a punishment?
I dont even know what to say, like kuneshment!
Unable to center my thoughts, not get straight,
Feelin my rhymes badly descrimate.

Always was able to write,
Never once I had to fight.
But tonight, I aint controlin'!
My poetic mind. It's been stolen!
Thought at one point, love was shown,
But now I sit here, oh So alone.

Lonely night, desperation fills the air,
Only if there was the special one out there.
Trying to care, I want to know a sipmle fact.
Me being lonely, is it because of how I act?
Fans, I'm sorry about this, just my emotion,
On the inside its starting with the erotion.
Please, time is running out! Mind is numbing,
Nerves are starting to tingle, and the rap is dumbing.
Curved, wanting to settle this once and for all,
Wishing I'd loose my desperation, just one call.
All I need. Just someone under my wing,
To help me, care for me, when I'm sick, sing.
It's been six months now, for me thats a while.
Life cant go like this! It aint DJ style!
Think I'ma go, try to cool off a bit.
Before my rhymes and I forget.
So message me, cause I'm not doing well.
Go and PM, cause this so is in expell.
Until next time, thou shalt be sitting here,
Until the next rhyme, thou says I'm here dear.

Always was able to write,
Never once I had to fight.
But tonight, I aint controlin'!
My poetic mind. It's been stolen!
Thought at one point, love was shown,
But now I sit here, oh So alone.