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Why can't it be back to normal?
The way it used to be?
When I was so full of joy
I want back the old me.

I'm not too happy with who I am
I make mistakes like no other
That's why I'm sitting here writing
To avoid making another.

This growing up thing's scary
I'm scared out of my mind
Knowing my luck, I'll be the one
Everyone leaves behind.

I know I shouldn't feel this way
I can't explain why I do
I hide it the best I can
But somehow it's shining through.

I just want to truly be happy
And actually enjoy my life
I'm ready to become better
And end this pain and strife.