By day

By day you don't see my tears,
Just put on a smile do my job in life,
Then it finishes no one sees me fall,
No one knows the thoughts I'm having,
Memories i want to have but can't find.

Not a day goes by i don't think of my dear friend,
She's no longer here,
Yet i don't even know how long it's been,
Since i saw her smile,
Since we laughed and cried,
Caused so much chaos...
All i can remember is the call,
Where i found out she was gone,
Wish i could erase the nightmares and remember the good.

Once upon a time i had belief,
Now all that is gone,
I look but i can't find,
A reason to go on,
Love triangles, mental fits list just goes on,
Trip after trip to hospital no results to see,
Just a memory getting worse,
A soul getting sadder,
Can't go on like this forever,
Can't escape the nightmare or break away,
Don't know where to run anymore,
How to be happy again,
By day I'm one thing or so i may seem,
Deep down just i ticking time bomb,
Slowly breaking apart.