Words So True

I need to yell, I need to cry
But if anything I feel the need to die.
I took you for granted when you came into my world.
To you I was this amazing girl,
But Im truly not deep down inside,
Id much rather run away and hide.
Thats why Im here on your doorstep
Because for the last month I havent slept
In the pouring rain I ran to your home
It had to be done in person, not over the phone.
I rang the bell and you came to the door
Something in your eyes made me want you even more.
Man, it didnt take you too long,
You just looked at me and knew something was wrong.
You rushed me in and hugged me for a while,
Handed me some sweats and put my wet clothes in a pile.
We went in front of the fire to sit down,
and on your face came a huge frown.
You asked me whats wrong and nothing came
Then tears started flowing and I felt totally lame.
But you held me until I was all done crying
and I decided it was time to stop lying.
Millions of things rushed through my head as I gathered words,
Instead of butterflies in my stomache, I had birds.
You gave me a look saying -Whenever youre ready
I reached for your hand, but I couldnt keep mine steady.
Finally mine reached yours and I squeezed you hand
Knowing our relationship was surviving on a thin strand.
I started off by saying I made a huge mistake,
You said itll all be okay but your voice sounded fake.
I told you I love you, there was no lie in that phrase
Then I told you how my life turned into a huge maze.
Then, my heart began to race,
as you brushed the hair from my face.
Again I squeezed your hand,
took a deep breath and began.
-I dont know how to say this so Ill tell you it straight
Because Im afraid if i wait, itll be too late-
I pause as more tears begin to flow
and I tell myself to just let the words go.
-The mistake was not telling you this sooner than now,
But I honestly didnt know how.-
Then I you straight in the eye
and said, -Baby, Im gonna die.-
You squeezed my hand and had a look asking why
and then, Lord, you yourself began to cry.
In between tears you asked -How?
and it was finally time to tell you now.
-Ive had cancer for five years
But then you came into my life and wiped away my fears.
Then I got into remission saying it was because of you
But I got a relapse, and they say theres nothing more they can do.-
You looked at me confused saying, -No.-
You said you didnt want me to go.
You said it couldnt be possible, that I was healthy
But there were a lot of things that you didnt see.
Like my appearance during chemo, or all the times I got sick,
But you my dear, you were my trick.
You kept me happy- which made me feel great,
but now Im afraid its too late.
But I had to tell you so you knew,
and, I want you to know that I really do love you.
You pulled me close and kissed me hard
it hurt me knowing that Im the reason your hearts now scarred.
You held me for hours scared to let go
You made sure your love for me would show.
You drove me home slowly, but still too quick,
You kissed me again, this time knowing I was sick.
Then you leaned in and whispered in my ear,
-Dont worry babe, Im right here.
Im not leaving, your always gonna be my girl
Because your the only one I care about in this world.
Nobody can compare to you
or anything that you do.
I promise Ill stay by your side
for the whole entire ride.
cause baby....I love you.-
Right then I didnt know what to do
but to say -I love you too.-
But the words never felt so true till just then
too bad it was all going to end...

And in three months she died,
But he kept his promise and stayed by her side.
Her life was changed since the day they met each other,
and she died with him as her only lover.