Just Not Strong Enough

Every day I think of you,
And how much you loved me too.
How the days passed by without a worry.
Why did you leave in such a hurry?

I looked at the sky,
With the clouds so high.
And wondered where you were.

Autumn is near,
Summer was here.
But as it drifted by,
It took something that was mine.

It stole my heart,
It stole just that part.
It took you away,
Even though I asked you to stay.

I don't know where you are,
Or if you are even far.
But I feel the pressure all around me,
Although I can't see.

I am blinded by the thought,
That you and me are just a big NOT.
I can't hold myself up anymore,
But there has to be more in store.

God wouldn't leave me here,
With all these tears.
If there wasn't a reason for it.

But although I tell myself this,
There is something else I miss.
Because although I know my stuff,
I just don't think I am strong enough.