Wishing for Nothing

I've wished for his love.
For him to care.
For him to really want me,
but he doesn't.

I've wished for her to change.
To look upon me and smile.
To see me for what I can be,
but she doesn't.

I've wished to take her place.
I've memorized her words of wisdom.
I'm wishing she'll be there for my children,
but she won't.

I've wished for my pain to end.
For happiness to be my spine.
For me to be her instead of me,
but i'm not.

I've wished for him to realize.
For him to put more effort into her.
To see that all is not lost,
but he doesn't.