Why does it hurt so much to just love you?

Everytime I closee my eyes
I see your face
it hurts that much more
the memories I just can't replace

your smile corrupts me
filling me with pain
your eyes so soft and light
drive me insane

and each time
I tro so so hard not to cry
im stuck, my head in my hands
asking myself why why why

I just don't get it
I have not a clue
why it hurts so much
just to love you