The Account of Us

Holding back our feelings,
For a year and some
We finally let them burn,
We finally succumbed

Holding one another
Kissing our sweet lips
Just standing there all the time,
With your hands on my hips

It got us through for a while
Then I noticed you starting to slip
You went away for a few days,
On that stupid trip

A couple of weeks later,
You said you were done
I honestly believed,
That I had your heart won

An overflow of reasons,
One not this kid named dru
I have reason to believe,
That what you said was not true

Hurt and broken,
I tried to move on
I just could not believe,
That you were gone

You did your thing,
And I did mine
You were doing great
I was not so fine

We go on a trip,
With no guarantee
I was myself,
I was me

We both know what happened
You pretty much igniting it again
We both agreed,
For a new begin

You wanted to take it slow
Wait a while longer
The only thing that happened,
Was our feelings becoming stronger

Kissing non-stop
For a few days
I know we both,
Had to be in a daze

We were together again,
We both agreed that we were going to try
Apparently all I did,
Was give you a "high"

You go to college
And meet some kid named tom
I was not worried,
I really was calm

Once again I believed I had you,
In my arms forever
You said stuff that made me believe,
That you were going to take this endeavor

You sure made it seem that way
What with being happy and saying that I was perfect for you
I actually thought that,
Your words were true

Your words that told?
Bullshi*
That proof depended from your eyes?
There was never any commit

You ended it with a host of reasons
One not being tom
You said, "Just so you know I really do want us to work out,"
That made me calm

I was going to give you time,
To figure things out
You still wanted to be part of my life,
Something I did not doubt

I know there was something for me,
That you really cared
Which is really why,
I was not too scared

I was looking forward,
To taking it slow
To develop feelings,
That would only grow

Last night though,
You were being dumb
You want me to have nothing to do with you,
You want us to be done

You were being extremely rash
I know I can't be that bad
You did not like how,
I got mad

Can you blame me?
I think I had the right
I was really frustrated,
That you lost your sight

I do not rage like you think I do
I am not deranged
Ask any of my lifetime friends,
They will say I have changed

You were not leading me on,
Just so you know
I was not going to let myself get hurt.
Again.

I was going to abide by the rules,
Of us seeing how it goes
I was okay with saying,
"Who knows?"

No matter what happens,
I want you in my existence
I would that you wanted me in yours
I would that we are not distant

I gave you my heart
I thought I had yours too
I really wish that,
You only knew

And you know what?
It's worth it
Your smile says so
Its definitely committed