Hurting Bad

I'm surprised i still have tears left to cry,
As i sit here and ask myself why.
I'm surprised i still have these feelings for you,
As you continue the horrible things you do.

I believed every "i love you baby",
For my vision was blurred and shady.
I believed every "i'm sorry, that was the last time",
For i didn't know where to draw the line.

I cried myself to sleep at night,
From the way you and i would fight.
I cried myself to the point of no return,
From the way it was you that i yearn.

I tried to tell myself i deserve better,
With every word i write, a secret love letter.
I tried to find a way out of this,
With every dream i had, of your kiss.

I'm trying not to choke on the pain,
Because of this heartbreaking game.
I'm trying not to end up dead,
Because of every hurtful word you said.

I just can't hold back these tears,
Not for all of these years.
I just can't find my way out,
Not from my every doubt.

I love you babe,
But i can't continue this way.
I love you more each day,
But i can't find the perfect words to say.