Im sorry for telling him about something that I thought was true.
But guess what arguing the way we did has never solved anything.
All it did is brake the friendship that i thought would last.
I guess I was wrong.
If i could do it over again i would,
because i lost you as a friend and yet your still the only thing
I care about,
even more than that fuking conversation.
I admit that this was my fault,
Now our friendship is over
and I don't think you have any idea on how much pain I'm in,
but trust me this isn't what I wanted at all.
I cant help to read that conversation over and over again.
Especially those hurtful words that say " i thought it was some joke i wasn't serious"
thats when a tear falls down my cheek every time.
How the hell could I have been so naive? I don't understand.
To you all this was just a simple joke,
to me it was too, but then there were some parts that weren't.
I never though I was gonna say this,
but today you walked out of my life
leaving all memories and the bull shit we had go to waste.
And until this day those words still hurt like a knife.
I keep on thinking how to make this all right,
But theres the simple fact that I just can't.
The fact that all this was just a lie.
It puts me to wonder and think if our friendship was too.
Your hurtful words will keep me strong,
and away from you.
So I wont go insane crying over the fact that we aren't friends.
Its gonna be a while before we both speak again,
but until that day comes to me you'll just be a stranger,
a person that I have never met before in my life.
