No place to call home!!!

Today i came home and saw my uncle. I walked in and he said "its ok baby to cry your ganna need to sit down"...As he walked out i screamed and fell to the floor holding my head crying....I called my brother and he said it would all be ok and he knew i was a strong girl...I ran to my room and blood started to run down my arms.....I wanted to finish it all right now....Uncle came home and saw me on the couch he said dad was better now he said he woulnt suffer so much he said he wanted me to know that he loved me and he knew i would be ok EVEN THOUGH HE WAS DEAD...I cryied i kicked i through a fit but i knew it would never bring dad back....I.ve been through so much all i needed with my dad to leave me....My brother will be out soon and he wants revenge i've been praying for the first time in my life and apparently its pointless...My uncle wants me to leave my "home" and leave i'm scared to walk around if i dont do it some one else might... I know im strong come on i've made it this far but i dont know if i can fight myself any more