Beep...Beep...Beep...
She's not breathing...
Hurry someone save her...
I think I'll name her Charish just in case she doesn't live...
It means I'll love you forever...
Ugh look at that ugly red hair i don't want it...
Why didn't she just give me away or have an abortion...
Born into this world unloved with no tender care,
no one to love me no ones there,
cockroaches, a dresser drawer, darkness, a bathroom floor....I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER....
all i can remember, all i ever did got me into trouble and bad situations i wish i could predict ever since i was a little kid...I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER.....
paper and pen and repetition over and over again,
belts and walls, hits and falls...I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER
bedtime being the only shelter where i can cry,
one family psychiatrist after another and fake smiles like nothings the matter, I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER.....
ten years old broken and confused, cigarettes to help the abuse, a father who never existed a step to take his place,never allowed to take charge just sit there and watch her break my face...I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER....
being dissed on by her made his heart cold, never allowed to love me, never allowed to care made it seem like he was never even there, after i left i needed his help, but he still wouldn't love me he just never could,
JESUS F-U-C-KI-N-G CHRIST DAD I'M JUST A KID......
I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER........
a punch in the face, a kick in the ribs, running upstairs to hide from the b-i-t-c-h, building anger inside needing to be free punching a window to satisfy me,
I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER........
glass on the floor all round, a piece in my hand, tears running down, i scream as i rip it through my skin faster and faster each time, running away to nowhere but anywheres better than there,
I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER..............
this world has left me broken and all alone,
I'm only seventeen how do i cope with this all alone,
wheres the love of a family most people know,
I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER.......
Why couldn't i be named something else,
Like b-i-t-c-h or c-u-n-t or stupid thats all she ever called me anyways!
