Almost didn't hurt me this time

(this is more of just writing not really poetry just letting stuff out)

Kinda almost messed up my brain...he chases her but he leaves me to cri...but...he says he doesn't like $lut$...yet he just chased after one in front of me....but he told me he didn't hang out w/ her....so how come he would now be running after her?......why does he like her?.......how can he not get the fact i need proof thru his actions(not words).....he acts so different then what he tells me......and it almost didn't hurt me this time.......like at all........